Day 4 was uneventful. We were pretty much just about this life here; pool at my feet, lake behind my head:
We woke up late and caught the last few minutes of breakfast. I got SUPER annoyed by the lack of order at the omelet line. I wanted a joint with green chillies, tomatoes and cheese and they were putting me through changes just to live.
Yeah, I know, middle class-ass problems.
Tried not to make up, in two days, for all of the training I haven't been doing this holiday season. But you know I still went hard in the gym.
Watched "Fast 5" and yes, Vin Diesel is still my favorite actor. And Dwayne Johnson is the absolute coolest guy alive. He's had the title a coupla years now and will probably have it a couple more (but I'm closing in fast, no pun intended)! Also watched the latest "Mission Impossible" for the first time. That was pretty damn cool. Did I tell you I watched all of the "Twilight" films right before we left Doha? I actually enjoyed them immensely! I know, right?! Who knew?
Storms roll through every evening and I love it. It's sunny throughout the day, then it comes down. And I like to wait it out right up until it starts to pour. The smell, the light rain and the clouds amongst all of the organisms is worth all of the effort you put into life to get the things you aren't always sure you will. Just that.
I'ma tell you something. I'ma get a li'l personal for a second. I've had an amazing life thus far. I always knew 33 would be a turning point also. It's like a reflection stop for me. I've been very fortunate and lucky. It's crazy that I'm ringing in the new year, scarcely a month since turning 33, in Sri Lanka. Before leaving NY, I kept stating that I had to leave, to find something different. I had nice things and I could've stopped betting. I took calculated risks, mixed it with a little faith and supreme self-confidence to get to a certain point. What some saw as a pinnacle, a crowning achievement, I saw as a baseline, a requirement to put a bigger plan in action for myself and the universe. I started to feel like I needed to go East because, despite loving to "get fresh" and go out drinking and partying and living it up in NY and on vacations and the continued acquisition of things I didn't have and wanted, growing up, I felt like I wasn't living right and I needed to separate myself. So I accepted the position in Doha. It's been amazing, but you can't predict what you're supposed to live. I've been a bit disappointed by Doha's inability to provide the type of spiritual nourishment I felt like I needed. I should have known better though. Just being in a place doesn't do such a thing. I was expecting to find a path with an ease I never do in any other aspect of my life. I lost my way. So I stopped looking. I stayed in the moment, tried to disconnect a little from time and place. A few weeks later I found myself talking to an elephant on my way to a Buddhist temple.
You know my stories, because I'm very public with them. (Though trust me, SOME of the most important ones are in a vault that few have the key to.) I was from nothing, materially, and a movie that would rival "The Color Purple" could be made about my family upbringing. We won't revisit that today because I survived it, it doesn't need to be revived too often. The improbable became my daily life. I've honeymooned in the City of Lights, been paid to perform music and rock stages in front of my closest family and friends. I had an incredible wedding and saw my boys go from growing up in the gutter with me, to having beautiful families and homes far away from there. I've balled out at the casinos (I had no car and decent rent back then, haha), popped bottles in VIP in Vegas and NY, been waited on hand and foot at millionaire resorts and billionaire estates, been flown across the world to make a living doing what it's hard to make a living doing back home, manipulated the devotion of more amazing women than any man like I was should have the privilege of knowing, found a discipline to turn back the clock on my external appearance and internal health and make a living as an academic when a few short years ago it looked like I should just give the college thing up because it wasn't working out.
And trust me, I friggin' enjoyed it. Some of you know better than others, how much I enjoyed it. I'm certainly not above STILL enjoying it. And I wouldn't trade it for anything. It all stays with me, and I won't leave it behind. I need more though, something else. So I went on a search.
And I swear, the smell, the light rain and the clouds amongst all of the organisms is worth all of the effort you put into life to get the things you aren't always sure you will. Just this. No bottles, money, sex, compliments, drugs, threads or beats. I guess that's the appeal of nature. And it's evidence that you will get the things you work for.
Yeah, I know, middle class-ass problems.
Tried not to make up, in two days, for all of the training I haven't been doing this holiday season. But you know I still went hard in the gym.
Watched "Fast 5" and yes, Vin Diesel is still my favorite actor. And Dwayne Johnson is the absolute coolest guy alive. He's had the title a coupla years now and will probably have it a couple more (but I'm closing in fast, no pun intended)! Also watched the latest "Mission Impossible" for the first time. That was pretty damn cool. Did I tell you I watched all of the "Twilight" films right before we left Doha? I actually enjoyed them immensely! I know, right?! Who knew?
Storms roll through every evening and I love it. It's sunny throughout the day, then it comes down. And I like to wait it out right up until it starts to pour. The smell, the light rain and the clouds amongst all of the organisms is worth all of the effort you put into life to get the things you aren't always sure you will. Just that.
I'ma tell you something. I'ma get a li'l personal for a second. I've had an amazing life thus far. I always knew 33 would be a turning point also. It's like a reflection stop for me. I've been very fortunate and lucky. It's crazy that I'm ringing in the new year, scarcely a month since turning 33, in Sri Lanka. Before leaving NY, I kept stating that I had to leave, to find something different. I had nice things and I could've stopped betting. I took calculated risks, mixed it with a little faith and supreme self-confidence to get to a certain point. What some saw as a pinnacle, a crowning achievement, I saw as a baseline, a requirement to put a bigger plan in action for myself and the universe. I started to feel like I needed to go East because, despite loving to "get fresh" and go out drinking and partying and living it up in NY and on vacations and the continued acquisition of things I didn't have and wanted, growing up, I felt like I wasn't living right and I needed to separate myself. So I accepted the position in Doha. It's been amazing, but you can't predict what you're supposed to live. I've been a bit disappointed by Doha's inability to provide the type of spiritual nourishment I felt like I needed. I should have known better though. Just being in a place doesn't do such a thing. I was expecting to find a path with an ease I never do in any other aspect of my life. I lost my way. So I stopped looking. I stayed in the moment, tried to disconnect a little from time and place. A few weeks later I found myself talking to an elephant on my way to a Buddhist temple.
You know my stories, because I'm very public with them. (Though trust me, SOME of the most important ones are in a vault that few have the key to.) I was from nothing, materially, and a movie that would rival "The Color Purple" could be made about my family upbringing. We won't revisit that today because I survived it, it doesn't need to be revived too often. The improbable became my daily life. I've honeymooned in the City of Lights, been paid to perform music and rock stages in front of my closest family and friends. I had an incredible wedding and saw my boys go from growing up in the gutter with me, to having beautiful families and homes far away from there. I've balled out at the casinos (I had no car and decent rent back then, haha), popped bottles in VIP in Vegas and NY, been waited on hand and foot at millionaire resorts and billionaire estates, been flown across the world to make a living doing what it's hard to make a living doing back home, manipulated the devotion of more amazing women than any man like I was should have the privilege of knowing, found a discipline to turn back the clock on my external appearance and internal health and make a living as an academic when a few short years ago it looked like I should just give the college thing up because it wasn't working out.
And trust me, I friggin' enjoyed it. Some of you know better than others, how much I enjoyed it. I'm certainly not above STILL enjoying it. And I wouldn't trade it for anything. It all stays with me, and I won't leave it behind. I need more though, something else. So I went on a search.
And I swear, the smell, the light rain and the clouds amongst all of the organisms is worth all of the effort you put into life to get the things you aren't always sure you will. Just this. No bottles, money, sex, compliments, drugs, threads or beats. I guess that's the appeal of nature. And it's evidence that you will get the things you work for.
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